My blue eyes faded. Only You can bring them back........................................

I wanted to hold onto you forever. I felt safe and scared at the same time. I knew in a few seconds my whole world was gonna crumble.And it did

will     you    walk    with    me?
just for a little while........................ until the feelings gone?
hold my hand ?

I'm not asking for you to fall in love (maybe I am..)
For some great romance..........  :( would it ever be the same?)
JUST BE WITH ME (please PLEASE don't leave my side)
until the feelings gone..................(Just wait with me. Hold me. Be there with me. Until I can forget you)

That night you hugged me goodbye out the front of your mama's place....and you held me as I cried on your shoulder.  It was so far over to you, but you held me. I needed that, I still do. I never wanted to let you go that night, I still don't want to.........You don't understand how my heart broke into a million pieces that as you pulled away, thats when I knew I'd never be in your arms ever again......

As Courtney said - "have you EVER felt as used up as this..........." I'm so drained. How do people EVER move on? I would honestly wait forever for you. 

I'm excited and nervous. I'll see you next week. I've changed. My personality, like you told me to. I've made such an effort to pull my head out of my ass.  If you give me the time of day you'll see I'm nearly back to the old me.  But I look different.  I know what you're attracted to, and I don't think its what I look like now.  I want you to see me and fall in love all over again, just like we were.  Sly grins, cheeky gropes, those amazing kisses.  My heart skipped a beat today thinking about those kisses ;) You have no understanding of the effect you have on me.  I'm a married woman. I was never supposed to fall in love with you.

Mazzy Star - Fade Into You (Black White Version)

I tell him hes got NOTHING to worry about

It's true, in a way.  He worries the boys will seduce me with their money, their way of life.  He doesn't need to worry about that. No chance in hell. I don't even give them the time of day. There's only one man on my mind and I'm not interested in sharing my heart with anyone else.  Its too hard. I'm too far fucked already to deal with a broken heart again.  I'm already holding out for someone who will never be mine again. Honey don't fret I ain't leavin you for any of those boys (the one I would leave you for wants nothing to do with me- hes the only one you gotta worry about and he's not interested) so don't worry baby - you and me will be just fine well... You will

I TRY

to block you out of my mind. BUT SOMETHING ALWAYS REMINDS ME OF YOU. I hear a song, I smell your cologne on someone, I meet someone who talks, smiles, jokes - JUST LIKE YOU DO. I see your name.  Why is it so hard to move on.  I looked on your profile tonight.  I wonder if you still look at mine? Theres a photo of you and a girl.  You've mentioned her before. I can't bear to see you with someone else.  I still wish you were ALL MINE. and in this photo - you smile. it's not your usual face......what's on your mind boy? Damn I wish it was me in that photo.  I don't want her to have you. 

strangers>friends>LOVERS>strangers

You made the earth stop spinning

I never wanted to let you go,

even though you were never really mine to let go........... I still can't let you go
Even though its what you want.  One day I hope you'll tell me that you never wanted me to leave..... that even though you pushed me away and cut me out of your life, You never stopped thinking about me........... In the back of my mind, I hold the smallest glimmer of hope, that one day we will be together again.

I'm content, doing my own thing. Then I look at the time. He's gonna be here soon   : D
My heart skips a beat. or 10. I smile. It makes everyone wonder what I'm so happy about.  The boys try to get my attention.  I don't care. I'm in my own little dream land. I coun't down the minutes, the seconds.  Then I look across I see you. I see your smile. Your eyes.  You have that shy cheesy grin///////////All I can think about is how in less than five seconds I'll be in your arms. Not for long though.  It can't be obvious.  you put your arms around me. I look up and get lost in your eyes.  That smile - melts me. Everytime. I forget everyone else in the room.  You pull away. You were always the first one to pull away. More self control than me.... maybe? I should have taken that as a warning sign......  Its funny that only a few weeks before we had just started chatting.  (we both know there was some very intense chemistry between us, to say the least) We hit it off, didn't we....... for hours we'd talk.  You flirted with me. How could I resist? Your charm, charisma, sense of humour......... it felt like I'd met my prince charming, for the second time.  I had such strong feelings from the start and I knew I couldn't act on them. BUT I DID. I FUCKING DID. then every week. from the minute we said goodbye......I counted the seconds till I saw you again............  -> The excitement. The ecstasy. I knew I was in love.

ALL DAY

EVERY DAY

Sweet ( ******* ) dreamS

I wonder what I'll dream of when I finally stop dreaming of you? Will I dream of him? There's a million reasons why I am the luckiest girl in the world to have him.  So why do I dream of YOU? Every night.  Is it because we are UNFINISHED?

YOU'RE STILL THERE - in my HEAD

GET THE FUCK OUT ALREADY - I'M SICK OF MISSING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

What once felt like Heaven is now Hell (nothing more than a memory)

I've never wanted to kiss someone so badly I'm scared that I'll never want to kiss someone else that way ever again

SOMEDAY YOU WILL ACHE LIKE I ACHE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KzepWL73NTg







someday you will ache like I ache.
someday you will ache like I ache.
someday you will ache like I ache.

I WANT TO BE THE GIRL WITH THE MOST CAKE..................................

(AND ITS FUCKING KILLING ME)

   She looks over at the one who she is to spend her life with, she loves him with all of her head and most of her heart. Why can't she love him with all her heart? It eats her alive that he's not the only man she thinks of.



He should be the only man she thinks of. 
When will he be the only one?
How long will it take to forget?

I RISKED EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING FOR YOU. YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME, YOU SAID YOU'D BE THERE FOR ME, YOU SAID WE'D ALWAYS BE FRIENDS AT THE VERY LEAST. NOW I'M NOT WORTHY OF A REPLY. HOW CAN SOMEONE WHO WAS ONCE SO SPECIAL TO YOU NOW MEAN NOTHING. HOW DO YOU FORGET WHAT WE SHARED AND MOVE ON SO QUICKLY?

it WAS Heaven

It was so beautiful - it felt like Heaven, what I wouldn't give to hold you in my arms once more, kiss your lips, be close enough to feel your heartbeat.  Why did it have to end? What I wouldn't give...................

Not

a single day has gone by in which you have not been present in my dreams............I wish you could just fade away, I don't want you to, but it would make life so much easier for me, since I can't have you